Loss and nothing at all

I don’t do well with feeling like I’ve lost something or someone.

I get extremely triggered and panic.

Panic

Panic.

When I feel like I lost a partner

The trauma gets stirred up and swirls around me

When I feel like I’ve lost a best friend,

I feel like an abandoned girl at a simple playground, wearing little white fancy socks and saddle shoes.

When I feel like I’ve lost both

the fire comes in burning

Burns the swirling and the saddle shoes

and there is nothing left to wear.

No words to even say it

Goodbye

Goodbye.